12-20-2008, 04:27 PM
Some thing happened. Doesn't really matter what, or weather it was real or imagined. Some thing happened and you saw your mortality. You know deep down in that place in your gut that place that speaks to you when you slow for a moment. the one that seys get to work don't pretend any more. you now know you can in fact die. Not only can you, you will. You now know this for a certainty. that place wont let you forget it, it nags at you relentlessly pushing its agenda on you.
My advise to you is listen. Its that place that kept me alive on mission after mission. Moment after moment when others folded and fell I stood I trusted the place to direct me. You should do the same. Trust me once that place is awake every moment of down time will be dominated by it. All hope is not lost how ever. You can not get it to shut up but you can get it to quite down. The place has only one concern, living. It wants you to stay alive. it wants your loved one to stay alive.
To begin is not as hard as it sounds. If you like most you come home from work and veg for a bit in front of the television. Continue to do that. But while your doing that look around. Try to imagine some thing as simple as the power going out. How close is a light source. how close is a radio. How will you get news to see how long this is going to last. Then go from there let one step lead to another. maybe put the flash light and radio beside the chair. then look around some more. find a problem fix a problem. Survival doesn't have to be rocket science. You can do this. Now go do it.
That my friends is the begginning. and little steps like that are the only way I know of to calm down the nagging that you do to yourself when your mortality is questioned.
My advise to you is listen. Its that place that kept me alive on mission after mission. Moment after moment when others folded and fell I stood I trusted the place to direct me. You should do the same. Trust me once that place is awake every moment of down time will be dominated by it. All hope is not lost how ever. You can not get it to shut up but you can get it to quite down. The place has only one concern, living. It wants you to stay alive. it wants your loved one to stay alive.
To begin is not as hard as it sounds. If you like most you come home from work and veg for a bit in front of the television. Continue to do that. But while your doing that look around. Try to imagine some thing as simple as the power going out. How close is a light source. how close is a radio. How will you get news to see how long this is going to last. Then go from there let one step lead to another. maybe put the flash light and radio beside the chair. then look around some more. find a problem fix a problem. Survival doesn't have to be rocket science. You can do this. Now go do it.
That my friends is the begginning. and little steps like that are the only way I know of to calm down the nagging that you do to yourself when your mortality is questioned.